Long time no post

So, I've decided that this is my little journal from time to time that I like to look back on so since crazy life is knockin at our door I felt like I better document it. So for starters our little man is due in just a little over 10 weeks. I can't believe that I am going to have another little one in our house in no time at all. So exciting and so nerve racking all at the same time.
Dean and I have been making some decisions around here for us long term. Sacrifice now to have something in the future right. My husband is amazing and is truly stepping up to the plate to be the provider for us. I am so grateful for him and for his dedication. How blessed we are as a family. He is not only working full time pest control right now but he just took on a full time graveyard shift doing security for the JW Marriott. We literally see him probably a total of 2 hours 5 nights a week before he heads off to bed to prepare for his day and nights ahead of him. Keeley sure misses her daddy and I sure miss my husband. The single parent thing is for sure not easy and I find myself, with no family here in town, being super lonely. Thank goodness for my sweet little girl that keeps me busy and that smile that makes it all worth it. I am really nervous for Liam though. How in the world am I gonna do a newborn and a 2 year old by myself? I guess I will figure it out and I will learn from it. Sacrifice now for something more in the future. I keep telling myself that over and over and over!!
I also find myself at times feeling overwhelmed with emotions about missing my dad. He was such an amazing man and with that being said how do you fill that void after they are gone? Reflecting on Keeley's birth I still see him and his penguin waddle walk walking into my delivery room and the smile on him face once she was born. I know that a huge part of Liam's birth will be bitter sweet without him actual presence in the room with me but I have to keep telling myself that I know he will be there. I know that it is probably just as hard for him not to be with us in this amazing time as it is for us not to have him here. His grandkids were his everything and I know Liam would have been no different. How I wish my little boy and my little girl for that matter could have known and learned from the man that their grandfather was.
Now with all that being said I will wrap it up with of course the every post needs a picture of my sweet baby girl. She is the best!! She is talking up a storm these days. You can't quite understand all of it but she's talkin. She is SOOO independent. She has to dress herself, brush her hair, her teeth, get her own sippy cup, the whole nine yards. She dances and sings all day and it just makes me smile to watch her do it. She laughs in my face when she gets in trouble and sometimes I will admit that the laugh and smile make it hard to follow threw but don't you worry, I do. She's the super best!!!