Genuine Friendships

So, I'm up after being asleep for a little over and hour because this new baby I am brewing makes me feel like its time to have the flu at any moment all the time. Thank goodness for peppermint gum that soothes that though. I do have something weighing heavy on my mind though so I will write on my blog about it since that so rarely happens anymore. Tonight we went to go see Santa and some fake bubble snow with some long time friends of mine and their families. How grateful I am for invitations to do things like that. It amazes me though that one simple hug from a genuine true friend can make you feel so much comfort, that in an instant its like all of your emotions can come flowing to the surface because you know they truly care for you in the most sincere way. I had this happen to me tonight and that hug of comfort has stuck with me through the evening. How grateful I am to my Heavenly Father for blessing me with such amazing friends my whole life. I am truly amazed at the people they have become and how we all still truly care for one another. They can always bring a smile to my face and with one simple hug bring me comfort that is so often forgotten.

Family Pictures

Every year it seems like on Canadian Thanksgiving we have our family pictures taken for the year. Well this year my friend Megan Lee of Paisley Jane Photography took them and we love them. Here are a few

Happy Birthday!

Tomorrow is my dads birthday. All he ever said about birthdays was that is was just another day. I try to remind myself of that. The only thing he ever wanted to be doing on his birthday was be out hunting in the hills. For many of the birthdays in his lifetime he was doing just that. He loved every minute of it too!! I bet you he is just salivating in heaven with all the beautiful buck around to look at and knowing that Heavenly Father won't let you shoot them up there. So as a small tribute to my dad tonight I say, you're one of the greatest men I know. You were the best round snuggle bear that I have ever seen. My childhood would have not been the same without Sunday morning cartoons with you on your bed. I have found myself doing the Tarzan yell to Keeley before. Look what you have started!! Too bad she never got to hear yours. She would think mine was totally lame. I'm trying to live up to your expectations though. You were so kind to everyone. Giving beyond what any of us knew you had. There is not one person since you've been gone that hasn't said what an amazing person you were. Way to make peoples expectations of your spawn go above what I think I'm capable of. Now I'm not only going to have to tell people that my mom is to amazing and not for them to expect that from me. I'm also going to have to tell them to not get their hopes up to high for me being as amazing as my dad. I hope you are up there getting to spend some time and teaching my little ones before they come down here to be members of our crazy family and teaching them how to deal best with their stubborn mama. I love you daddy! Happy Birthday and may you see the biggest, most beautiful buck you've ever seen!!

Home but not Whole

So I am home in Las Vegas. It's been 2 weeks and 4 days. For those 2 weeks and 4 days I have replayed saying such as, "Yes, my father passed away on July 27, 2010" and "He passed away in a 4 wheeling accident". Sometimes I say those 2 saying over and over in my head wondering how many times in my lifetime I will have to repeat those 2 phrases. Phrases that you don't think you will ever really have to say but I do.
It's amazing how the Lord blesses you with the ability to just push through for your loved ones. Today as I was driving home the reality of everything finally hit me. I have had moments here and there but truly been able to just help my mom with communication and finances. I feel that the Lord blessed me with all of my years of work experience to be able to sort through some of this stuff after my dads passing. Now though, it is here. The grief is here. I hear his voice in my head for some reason repeating the same simple voice message he would leave when he called. "Hi Meg, This is your dad." Its almost like he is some how trying to tell me, "Hey Meg, this is your dad and I'm still here." I also as strange as this sounds remember the silly stuff like feeding treats to my baby or texting me from his real estate brokers class. Makes you realize that everything you do in this life leaves an impression on people whether the act is great or small. The biggest compliment in my lifetime has been that I am just like my dad. I hope to continue to live in his amazing legacy and be just like my dad because if I can touch lives and leave this world like he did I truly have lived a life of purpose. My worries now lie in, who is going to be with my mom, who is going to be there to watch and witness my babies being baptized, who is going to some day take those little ones of mine on the front lawn and watch them as they play? All of these questions will I'm sure be answered and not be so hard to face at some point in time but for now they are. I love you daddy. You were my best friend and understood me like noone else could. I miss you more then you understand!

Prayer

So, I have to admit I am not the best at always saying my prayers. I try and I'm not horrible but lately I find myself thinking of so many things that I lay awake at night for a while and I am waking up a ton because of the millions of things on my mind. With that being said, I think that some of this could be settled, or I guess comforted could be a better word, if I had more faith and was more sincere in my prayers. They tell us constantly to rely on the Lord to give our hearts and our worries to him and let him be our comforter but honestly, how do you do that? I think that my biggest problem is control. I like to have control. It is probably my biggest downfall. I really need to work on this one. Any advice?

Love-Hate relationship

I have a serious love hate relationship with running into old friends. I LOVE LOVE LOVE seeing them. It is so good to see how they're doing, how they are looking, and just in general what they are doing with their life. Now the hate part of this thing. I wish so badly that when I ran into someone from my past that I felt confident with how I looked. It would just be so nice to walk away from an encounter like that and think, wow it was so amazing to see them, instead of walking away thinking oh my gosh I wish that I would have actually done my hair or looked thinner, or.... Well, you know how it goes. Some day I'll get there. I am sure of it. After my skin is all done stretching from having babies, my life is less crazy so I don't want that piece of chocolate, or I have more time to go on that leisurely run. With all that being said, Jolene, if you are stalking this blog post I adored running into you. You look fabulous and I would love to catch up more on how things are going with you and even some night leave the baby with my husband and go grab dinner or something:)

Just for fun I am adding a couple new pictures of the baby. She is the best. Never stops, but the best none the less:)

Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

Today my baby girl turns one year old! I can't believe how time flies. Little Bug, you make my world go round. Your smile brightens my day. You are so funny. You lay on the stairs, throw all your toys down the stairs, love to play outside, hold your binky outside of the bottom of your lip. You have the longest tongue. Your dad calls it your cow tongue. It's just like your Grandpa Adams'. You do everything in your own time. You have a firey personality! I love that and I love you! Doesn't get much better then you little bug. You make everyone around you happy with that great big smile and those beautiful eyes. Happy Birthday!